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I COULD NEVER NEVER BE LONELY

is an independent publication launched in April 2026 by Lara Durback Skye. If you subscribe today, you'll get full access to the website as well as email newsletters about new content when it's available. Your subscription makes this site possible, and allows I COULD NEVER NEVER BE LONELY to continue to exist. Thank you!

***I will also be sending out two handmade gifts per year to my upper tier subscribers WOOT (scroll all the way down to see some photos)

I’ve been trying to make a forum to share what’s in my head for a while. Truthfully, putting what I’m thinking about out there some how makes me less aggro, and less scared in an increasingly fascist world.

But something has unclicked in me lately, a need to share something. I usually work out my complicated feelings alongside some researched topic in poetry, some of which I hope you will see here as well. I see writing in terms of film, I see the scenes in my mind, progressing like a film would, and I have often interspersed text and image. I hope to be a grounded ancestor, someone with a knowledge that I have been as wild as I wanted to and also always wanted to be in tune with the land I live on, and the people around me. But I have always had a reflective side, probably too analytical and concerned with justice and leveling power to be as present and grounded as I would like to be.

I hope to explore all the worlds that matter to me, to uplift writers and makers and DJs and skate culture figures and community events and herbalists and and and uphold some kind of one-day-at-a-time psychogeography sky. To uplift those projects that have a holographic conception of what resistance can look like, what care can look like, what queers can look like, what community can look like, and yes, we don’t have to be perfect, we can be a little messy and sulky and yes angry. 

My life is a life of full notebooks, of the reading with others and dancing and skating and just vibing that made my life so much more balanced now....

INTERESTS

Octavia Butler & her sci fi lineages and the discourse around her

///// roller skating— all these different kinds: outside, in community, Black rhythm skate culture (adult skate night rink culture), street skating

folklore - especially plant folklore

///// astrology as a way to talk about timing and a queer relational way of directing discourse

prison abolition

///// folk herbalism, led by ancestral tradition

herbal first aid kits & go-bags

///// thoughtful horror movies

subculture

///// small businesses that function as community space containers 

yin yoga- or if you don’t want to hear the word yoga : release of connective tissue through long-held poses

///// large groups of people gathering in public

EMDR

///// somatic modalities

neurodiversity and autism

///// direct communication

direct action 

///// reading 

reading aloud

///// gardening, especially tending to what is already there

Panther Skate Plaza

///// Oakland, CA

indigenous fire practices

///// movement for movement sake

poetic subcultures

///// jungle music (Jamaican- and hybrid-descended British music of the late 90s; music of a multicultural time)

jungle as a group acknowledgment of ancestral paths

PODCASTS I LIKE :

Planting Medicine (KPFA) and predecessor The Herbal Highway

Millennials Are Killing Capitalism

Telepathy Tapes

East Bay Yesterday

The Folklore Podcast

Kai Cheng Thom

Ya Gay Aunties

London Something Podcast

Red Bull Academy Interviews

The Healthy Herb Podcast

Feed Your Wild

Moonbeaming

Modern Witches Podcast

Good Fire

Prentiss Hemphill

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